There aren’t really any ways out of this mess you’ve made. I suppose you can’t really hurt yourself any more than you already have, though, so there’s that. Welcome to rock bottom. Almost any change you make at this point will be an improvement; that’s the one benefit of a perfected misery. The only thing, I would caution you against what you’re doing, staying right here. Just go. Do something, anything. I know you’re afraid; the moment you step out of the confines of your hell, they’ll be coming for you, but is this really how you want to live?
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